Culinary superstar Antonio Park riffs on celebrity status and being 'freaking lonely'

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By any measure, Montreal chef Antonio Park is a tremendous success.

He ownsseveral restaurants in the city, including the flagship one that bears his name. He's planning to expand his empire with new restaurants in Toronto, Mexico City, Miami and Bogot.

He's a judge on the hit television cooking show, Chopped Canada.

Hollywood celebrities, including Katy Perry, Tom Cruise and Jennifer Lopez, love his food.

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Even afirelastNovember that forced him to temporarily shut down a couple of his restaurants didn't slow Parkdown. Lavanderia and Park both reopened within weeks.

Park loves his work, but he told CBC's new podcastMontreapolis it comes with aterrible price: overwhelming solitude.

Price of devotion to food

"I chose to do that. But there's no life.There's no friendship. There's no friends," Park said,in a wide-ranging interview.

"In today's world, without cooking, I'm freaking lonely," he continued.

Park is 41 and divorced with two children.

He said his rigid devotion to cooking and the restaurant business wasn't compatible with a happy marriage.

"I'm no longer married," said Park."I can't be married. I can't. If I get married to a woman right now, it's selfish because I know I'm not going to be able to take care of [her]."

He spends every Sundayand Monday with his children. The rest of the week involves long days supervising his culinary empire.

Asked if he hopes his children will follow in his footsteps, he's unequivocal: "Never, never, never, never, never."

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He worries they'd be unhappy.

Park also travels often, partying with and, occasionally, cooking forHollywood celebrities.

But hesaid thatjetset lifestyle is no substitute for real friendship.

"You start hanging around with celebrities, they have their own world, their own way of living their life which is totally different from normal life," Park said.

"Once you taste that,you start to believe that you're part of that. That's so wrong. Because we're all equal, we're all the same."

Best friends: Park and P.K.

Park said he's found one true friend in the world, someone who understands the demands and the pressures of success at an early age: former Montreal Canadien P.K. Subban.

"We say everything to each other. There's nobody that I can tell something that I tell him nobody. Exceptmy mom or my sister," Park said.

The two met whenHabsplayers started coming to a restaurant where Parkused to work. Park and Subban bonded over food,and when Park opened his first restaurant not far from whereSubbanwas living, that was it.

"Hecame to eat here for three years in a row, lunch and dinner every day," Park said.

The friendship evolved beyond food: the two successful men found they had loneliness in common.

"He has a very hard time trusting people, so he doesn't have a lot of close friends while he's a celebrity," Park said.

Now that Subban's been traded to Nashville, Park travels there often.

Hespent the All-Star weekend in Los Angeles visitingSubban,and Park's eponymous restaurant in Montreal hosted a private party for Subban and his Predators teammates when they were in town to face the Habs on March 2.

Park said the fire lastNovember has helped him keep things in perspective and realize what's important: his history, his family, his food.

But he said he won't slow downdespite the loneliness. The love of his life, it seems, is cooking.

"I'll die doing this. Even if it kills me, it's a part of me," he said.

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