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Manitoba healing camp helps residential school survivors amid search for graves, preparation for Pope's visit

People in Pimicikamak Cree Nation have spent the past week in a healing camp, dealing with the emotions surfacing as the northern Manitoba community searches for unmarked graves, and also as preparation for the upcoming visit of Pope Francis.

No matter what happens, 'we have to keep moving forward,' elder says

Shirley Robinson reads the inscription on a monument to students who died at the St. Joseph's residential school, on what is now Pimicikamak Cree Nation in northern Manitoba. It reads in part, 'Although you destroyed a little part of my being, you could not destroy the spirit and culture inside of me.' (Karen Pauls/CBC)

Donnie McKay sobs quietly and wipes away tears as he gazes across the Nelson River to where his grandmother used to live.

"She was so kind to us. She was everything for me at that time," he said, describing how men in black robes came to take him and his younger sister away.

An elder now,he recalled how excruciating it was to be "so close, yet so far away" when, as a young child, he was forced to attend the Catholic-run St. Joseph's residential school on what's nowPimicikamak Cree Nation, in northern Manitoba.

"For me, it was a prison," he said. "I always call it a prison. We were illegallytaken from our home and put in this institution."

McKay and others have spent the past week in their first-ever healing camp, dealing with the emotions surfacing as Pimicikamak uses ground-penetrating radar to search for unmarked graves, and also as preparation for Pope Francis's visit to Canada, which begins Sunday.

A man in an orange shirt stands looking out over a green field and a nearby river.
Donnie McKay stands on the site of the former St. Joseph's residential school and looks across the Nelson River to where his grandmother lived. It was 'so close, and yet so far,' he says. (Karen Pauls/CBC)

The camp, which includesceremonies, a sacred fire, and mental health supports, is the first time many of the elders have shared their stories with each other, McKay said.

"I think that helped ease up a bit on their experiences and what they have kept inside themselves," he said, adding he is still looking for a way to release his own anger.

'I carry it with me every day'

A short drive away along the river, Shirley Robinson stands in an old cemetery the final resting placeof some residential school students and staff.

One all-white statue stands out. It depicts St. Joseph tenderly holding a child in his arms.

Robinson doesn't spend much time there. She wishes Indigenous children were cared for and loved like that, but said it feels like that statue tells a lie.

A white stone statue depicts a robed man cradling a small child in one arm.
Robinson feels like this statue of St. Joseph holding a child in his arms is a lie. Indigenous children at the school names for him did not feel loved or cared for at residential schools, she says. (Karen Pauls/CBC)

Instead, she walks over to a memorial to students who died at the schooland reads the inscription on the back.

"Although you destroyed a little part of my being, you could not destroy the spirit and culture inside of me," she reads, her voice breaking.

"We will never forget and will keep forever in our hearts the spirits and memories of those who didn't survive."

A residential school survivor, and the daughter of parents who were also forced to attend the church-run, government-funded schools, Robinson has also been responsible for documenting the stories of elders.

A woman stands in front of stone grave markers in a treed cemetery.
Robinson has faith justice will eventually prevail for survivors of residential schools and their families. (Karen Pauls/CBC)

Many of them included heartbreaking experiences of abuse and neglect.

"I carry it with me every day. There's times when it's very heavy," she said. "I want them [the Catholic church] to admit that they've done wrong to us."

Heartbreaking stories are not far below the surface here. For the last two weeks, Pimicikamak has been using ground-penetrating radar to identify possible unmarked graves on what was once the main residential school in the region, run by the Missionary Oblates of Mary Immaculate.

As chief documentary researcher, Lisa Muswagon has been digging through the archives, trying to find documents that would identify students who came from many neighbouring communities.

A black-and-white historical photo shows a nun standing in a room of Indigenous boys and girls seated at desks. One student stands beside the nun, writing on a chalkboard.
A classroom at St. Joseph's Indian Residential School in in 1924 in Cross Lake, now known as Pimicikamak Cree Nation. (The Missionary Oblates of St. Boniface)

It's been difficult because there were federally funded schools at twolocations near Pimicikamakone at Norway Houseandone at Cross Lake.There was also a fire in1930 that destroyed many of the school records.

She has also visited other First Nations, such as Cowessess in Saskatchewan where last year,what are believed to be751unmarked graveswere found at the site of the former Marieval Indian Residential Schoolto get advice on how to best do this work.

"You get overwhelmed sometimes, but in a good waynot overwhelmed with all the trauma, but overwhelmed with joy, too," she said.

"Some people, when you tell them what you're doing, they're like, 'Oh, I'm so sorryyou're going through that.' But yet it's kind of like a like a shining light, because we're able to move forward.

"So the energy here is a lot of healing, a lot of coming together, supporting one another."

People inher generation still strugglewith the intergenerational effects of residential school, but Muswagon believes they are trailblazers and have an important role in breaking the negative cycles.

Lisa Muswagon has been searching for documents of the students who attended St. Joseph's. She's also part of the team organizing the ground-penetrating radar search. (Karen Pauls/CBC)

Mixed feelings about papal visit

She has mixed feelings about the visit by Pope Francis, which begins in Edmonton on Sunday before stops in Quebec and Iqaluit.He is expected to make an apology for the Roman Catholic Church's role in Canada's residential school system.

Muswagon says she'sgoing to Edmonton because it's a "timestamp for our community."

"Is there really reconciliation? Like, will the truth really be acknowledged?" she asked.

"So for me, I'm going there on a personal journey with the strength of my community and my people and my family and to show the future."

Others have doubts about the papal visit.

WATCH |Jackson Osborne explains why won't travel to see Pope Francis:

Jackson Osborne explains why he doesn't trust Pope Francis

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Jackson Osborne talks with the CBC's Karen Pauls about why he is not going to Edmonton to see Pope Francis, who is expected to deliver an apology for the Catholic Church's role in Canada's residential schools system.

"He wants to apologize to us. What would that mean? Will things change?" Jackson Osborne asks.

Osborne attended a different residential school, but many of his extended family were at St. Joseph's. He'sstill angry about the way he and his family members were treated at residential schools.

He's not going to Edmonton to see the Pope. He knows what he needs to hear, but doubts the pontiffwill deliver.

"He's got to touch a Bible and say, 'I'm sorry what we did to you on behalf of the government and the RCMP. I'm sorry. Forgive us. We created genocide. We created crime on your own country, on your own land,'" said Osborne.

"If he doesn't say that, there's gonna be no truth and reconciliation, they will never be. There will never be peace, never."

Back at the cemetery, the wind has picked up.

It's a sign, Robinson said.

"It means there's someone with us, and that's our Creator. He's walking with us and I know he will journey with us to ensure that justice is served," she said.

"We have to keep moving forward."


Support is available for anyone affected by their experience at residential schools or by the latest reports.

A national Indian Residential School Crisis Line has been set up to provide support for former students and those affected. People can access emotional and crisis referral services by calling the 24-hour national crisis line: 1-866-925-4419.