'I have a goal to complete my life as me': At 63, Winnipegger plans next steps in her gender transition
RhiannonLynn Frost started thinking about transitioning in her 40s
RhiannonLynn Frost shows off her new nail polish Purple Haze with pride.
It's her favourite colour, next to red.
"The last time I wore red, it was kind of like ruby slippers from Wizard of Oz, with a sparkle kind of thing," Frost says. "It just makes me feel good. I'm not ashamed."
It took her decades to be able to wear nail polish without feeling shame.
Frost is a 63-year-old transgender woman.
While most people her age are planningfor retirement, Frost is making plans to complete her transition this year.
Shesays it took her a long time to realize she was transgender, butshe doesn't think it's ever too late to go after your dreams.
"I have a network of friends who believe in what I'm doing," the Winnipeg womansays. "I have a goal to complete my life as me."
Frost started thinking abouttransitioningin her 40s. She started regularly wearing nail polish and women's clothing.
"Freedom," she says.
That's the feeling Frost has today, after struggling with her identity her whole life.
"If I was living with my parents now, they would have kicked me out if I did something like this," she says, showing off her nails as she applies her makeup.
"I wasn't comfortable in my other skin," says Frost.
When I was living the male life, I wasn't happy, I was angry. I was just mad all the time.- RhiannonLynn Frost
"When I was living the male life I wasn't happy, I was angry.I was just mad all the time, so I had to make a choice of what to do."
But the choice to transitionwasn't easy.
Excited, 'alittle nervous' about next steps
First, shedida lot of research.
For the past year, she's been taking hormones,and she's receivedlaser treatments to removeher facial hair.
The biggest step in her transformation will be breast augmentation surgery later in the fall.
"I'm very excited, a little nervous too," she says."I just want to feel more complete as a female."
But the biggest hurdlewas breaking it to her family.
Frost was born in Nova Scotia and named Lewis, after her grandfather. Lewis grew up in a family of eight, with four brothers and a sister who passed away from cancer a few years ago.
From the start, Lewis felt different from other boys.
"I was just always emotional growing up, and I thought that was kind of odd, because back then I thought females were supposed to be the most emotional people and I was always really emotional."
Frost also had a learning disabilityandwasbullied in school.
"I was in a special [ed]class and told I was a slow learner, so I was called names," she says."I wasn't into sportsor very masculine."
Lewis started taking an interest in nail polish when he was 11, after watching his mother and her friends painttheir nails at home.
He asked if he could try it, and his mom allowed it.
"But it was clear nail polish and so when I went to school that day, nobody noticed," Frost says.
'It's not who I am anymore'
It's not easy for Frost to talk about that time.
She doesn't want to share photos of her childhood or manhood becauseit's not her identity now, and she wants to leave it in the past.
"It's not who I am anymore."
Frost spent most of her adult years as a man, working in the service industry as a prep cook. She never married or had children.
She took on various other jobs, including one at a wood shop that resulted in a workplace accident in whichshe lost the end of afinger.
It took a night out with her friends to realize she needed a change.
"I was playing with some friends and I was experimenting with some [women's] clothes and it just felt right, but I wasn't sure, so it took a while to click in to me that I'm trans."
Disowned by family
Wearing women's clothing wasn't enough.
When she was in her 50s, she legally changed her name to Rhiannon Lynn Frost she prefers to be called Lynnand slowly began preparing her body for the life-changing surgery.
That meant telling her family the truth about her life.
"Most of the advice I got was was 'You're going to lose friends, you're going to lose family, you're going to lose a job and if you're living somewhere and they don't accept you, you're going to lose that too,'" Frost says.
They were right. She lost it all.
Her family disowned her. Her mother was blunt.
"She told me that if I ever call her or visit she would call the police on me and that was the end of that discussion."
She told me that if I ever call her or visit, she would call the police on me.- Frost
Her siblings and other relatives didn't understand either.
"My brother and stepmother came at me saying 'Somebody forced you into it,'" she says."Well, no. Nobody forced me into it."
But Frost is leaving that behind her.
"I'm moving on with my life. I don't need any distractions in my life right now."
Focus on the future
She is scheduled for breast augmentation, which is covered by Manitoba Health.
She eventually wants to get sex reassignment surgery, or bottom surgery, as she calls it, but that isn't offered in Manitoba right now. (It is funded by the province,but she'd have to travel to Montreal to have it done.)
Frost also thinks about having facial surgery one day.
"I want to feminize my face a little more, so it's more feminine than masculine," she says."I don't want to get mistaken for a guy, thinking I'm a drag queen or a cross-dresser, because I'm not. There's a big difference between us."
She feels the only way she'll be accepted for who she is on the insideis if people like what they see on the outside.
"I run into problems today where people just have difficulty with me, like on a bus or in the mall. Like I'll sit down somewhere and I'm not bothering anybody, and they see me and will get up and move away to someplace else."
Her focus now is on the future.
Frost is counting down to Sept. 3, the day of her breast augmentation surgery. Following that, she plans to attend Red River College tobecome a health-care aide.
She has no immediate plans to retire.
Barriers for older adults
It's a tough transition so late in life, but she's not alone.
Ellie Caslake, with the Rainbow Resource Centre in Winnipeg, runs a program for older adults in the LGBTQ2S+ community who needa safe space to gather.
"There are so many barriers for older adults to come out," Caslakesays.
"For a lot of us it took 60-plus years, and we just couldn't carry that weight any longer. We can't hide anymore.It's horrendously difficult, with or without support, to be lying on the surface every day."
Caslake, 68, came out in 2018.
"The short answer is thatI couldn't carry that weight anymore. I have been acting as a manand I just couldn't do it anymore."
She feels lucky that her family has accepted her for who she is.
"My son, his response was 'I figured as much,'" she says. "And I was like 'What? When?'" she laughs.
"My granddaughter's response was 'Grandpa, you look awesome.'"
We grew up in an era when being LGBT was against the law and there were health issues, the AIDS epidemic.- Ellie Caslake
But not everyone is that fortunate.
Caslake is seeing more people like Frost people whowantto transition later in lifeand don't have support.
"We grew up in an era when being LGBT was against the law and there were health issues, the AIDS epidemic," Caslake says.
"Older adults are at a stage where perhaps they've lost a partner, divorcedor there's death, and now there's this sense of freedom, permission. If not now, then when?"
CBC's Nelly Gonzalez joined two experts for a discussion on supporting transgender people. Watch it here:
Manitoba government numbers saygender-affirming surgeries have gone up since last year, while the number of older patients getting these types of surgeries remains low.
A spokesperson for the province says in the 2017-18 fiscal year, 88 patients received 93 surgeries. Three patients were over age 55.
In 2018-19, 142 patients received 144 surgeries but once again, only three patients were older than 55.
Regardless of age, though, everything changes once a person beginstheir transition,Frost says.
"As you transition, you sort of evolve from who you wereyour mannerisms, your hairstyle, your clothing, the fashion and the music."
Frost still has insecurities when she looks in the mirror, but she's slowly becoming comfortable in her own skin atthe age of 63.
"Looking in the mirror now, I see a beautiful transgender femalewho has a beautiful heart and a passion for life."
If you or someone you know needs more information about transgender supports for the aging population, contact the Rainbow Resource Centre.
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