Why some Catholic Quebecers are turning their backs on the Church over residential schools

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On Canada Day, while thousands of Montrealers gathered to denounce the country's legacy of Indian residential schools, Danielle Poirier was protesting in her own way.

She was submitting her apostasy, formally renouncing her Roman Catholic faith.

"I wanted to poser un acte, to do something concrete and official that said, 'I'm really disappointed,'"she said."For me doing that with the Church and demanding apostasy was the thing that seemed to be the most relevant."

Like many Quebecers, Poirier grew up immersed in Catholicism. But like othersaround the world, she has been distancing herself from the Church for the past few years. Apostasy takes place when someone who was baptized in the Church publicly and completely rejectstheir faith.

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The recent discoveries of unmarked burialsites nearformer residential schools across the country and the subsequent lack of apology by the Pope and the Catholic Church as an institution werethe tipping point that brought about her official break.

"For me, it was something to say it's official, 'walk the talk,'" she said to CBC Montreal'sDaybreak.

Their numbers may not be huge, but other Quebecers are doing the same.

The Church does not compile provincewide figures, butin a statement, the Quebec City Catholic Diocesesaid that it has seen anincrease in the number of requests for apostasy.

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"Usually, we receive between three and five per month. In June, we received 16, six of which explicitly mentioned the residential school issue," Valrie Roberge-Dion, the diocese's director of communications, said in a statement.

But Roberge also pointed out that close to one million Catholics are still part of the diocese, "despite the current crisis."

Kim Verreault, a resident of Granby, east of Montreal, is another Quebecer in the process of submitting her apostasy after growing up Catholic.

"I wanted to show my support to the First Nations," she said."So I wanted to send a strong message and say, 'Well, I'm done.' I don't want my name to be attached to theCatholic religion anymore."

For Verreault, whose mother was a former nun, the lack of apology from Pope Francis is what drove her to take an official stance.

In early June, the Pope addressed the residential school issue from his balcony overlooking St. Peter's Square atthe Vatican. While he expressed sorrowfor the discoveries, he did not apologize.

"With sorrow I follow the news from Canada about the shocking discovery of the remains of 215children, pupils at the Kamloops Indian Residential School in the Province of British Columbia," he said.

"I join the Canadian bishops and the whole Catholic Church in Canada in expressing my closeness to the Canadian people, who have been traumatized by this shocking news."

Later that month, the Canadian Conference of Catholic Bishops announced that a delegation of First Nations, Mtis and Inuit would meet with the Pope later this year, between Dec.17 and 20.

While the Pope and the Catholic Church have yet to apologize, Montreal ArchbishopChristian Lpine issued an apology to Indigenous communities for the role the Church played in the residential school system in Quebec.

"Our most fundamental values are undermined when the integrity of families and the respect due to every human being are so blatantly disregarded," Lpine said. "In this instance, the Church was dramatically out of step with Jesus Christ."

For both Poirier and Verreault, however, an apology from the Pope is needed.

"Why wait so long and meet the First Nations at the end of December?" Verreault asked."It [anapology]should be automatic."

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Support is available for anyone affected by their experience at residential schoolsand those who are triggered by the latest reports.

A national Indian Residential School Crisis Line has been set up to provide support for former students and those affected. People can access emotional and crisis referral services by calling the 24-hour national crisis line: 1-866-925-4419.