Embracing Indigenous culture was tough for student when outside community

A young indigenousmusician from the Pabineau First Nation says he could feel connected and comfortable with his culture at home, but didn't like to draw attention to it at schoolin Bathurst.

"Definitely at home, when I was hanging out with my grandparents or my mom, it wasn't tough to be part of that," said Tristan Grant, anECMA-nominated hip-hop artist."It was just everyday life."

Grant said he is one of many Indigenous young people who wonder if the tragic deaths of Tina Fontaine, ColtenBoushie and Brady Francis could also happen to them.

Mount Allison students held avigil to honour the three youththis week.

Now a fourth-year student in Mount A's theatre program, Grantsaid that when he went to school in Bathurst, north of the Pabineau First Nation, and tried to fit in with others, he would hear inappropriate comments about his being Mi'kmaq.

"It would make me extremely uncomfortable and of course, I'm a kid, I just want to fit in."

For Grant, this meant not embracing his culture publicly"because I'd always be subject to these really weird remarks and it would make me uncomfortable.

"Even being singled out in class for good or bad reasons, and I'm the only native in class,and suddenly I'm the spokesperson for the whole culture, which is a weird position to be put in when you're, like, 10."

Inappropriate questions

When he was in Grade 12, Grant said, he was even asked by a teacherif it was wrong to wear "anIndian costume for Halloween."

"Of course it's inappropriate," he said. "It's a weird thing to be asked when you're 17, in class."

Growing up, Grant said, he worried most about dangerous things and people coming into his community.

"When I was a kid, you couldn't really know who was driving through the reserve. So just part of growing up would be, 'If I see a car driving in my neighbourhood and I don't know who it is to get out sight.'

"So I would go and hide in the woods for a bit."

Still nervous

Grant said this was just something he got used to doing, although he feels hegrew up quite sheltered.It's also something that has stayed with him, and he still gets nervous if he sees a car driving around slowly.

"It's like an instinct that's in me."

Grant told CBC's Information Morning Monctonthe best way for non-Indigenous peopleto understand what Indigenous people go through is to get to know members of First Nationsandtheir culture.

"A lot of people who don't understand what's going on don't know much about our culture in the first place."

Time to learn

Grant is hopeful more peoplewill take the time to learn.

"If we're closer as a community across all cultures, then they can understand what's going on and make some change."

The deaths of Fontaine, Boushie and Francis have brought communities closer together, he said.

"Because all of this is being brought to light, I feel that also more people want to learn. That's what I feel now."

Grant said it's all right to askIndigenous people questions if the goal is to learn.

"The only time it's harmful is if somebody is just saying something ignorant, and they have no desire to learn anything. They are just being rude."

At Mount Allison, things are changing for Indigenous students, he said, as the university makes them feel more welcome and encourages them to express their culture more openly.

Information Morning Monctonwill be speaking with Tristan Grant on a regular basis about Indigenous issues facing young people today.