Yellowknife mom puts a face on mental illness, talks to middle-schoolers

A 22-year-old Yellowknife woman who's open about havingcontemplatedsuicide saysthe stigma of mental illness is still making it difficult for people in the North to seek help.

Jessy-Anne Jimenez is a northern speaker with the N.W.T. Department of Health and Social Services' Talking About Mental Illness program. It's a five lessonprogram designed for schools to reduce the stigma associated with mental illness.

"The Grade 8s learn about a course on mental illness," Jimenez said.

"We basically say our story at the end and put a face on what they have learned."

Jimenezsaid shehit rock bottom in 2011 when her father left her and her mother. She had a bad gut feeling when she opened the door of her home to findher mother crying. She callsher father's choice to leavea stab to the heart. Jimenez fell into a depression and came within a note of killing herself.

"I had a paper and pen ready to write my suicide note," said Jimenez.

"I didn't know how I was going to go about it... I was just ready."

'Thought about how my mom would feel'

Jimenez found sanctuary in family and friends, and from posting her thoughts on Youtube and Facebook. In her darkest moments she thought of how her mother would react to her death.

"I stopped and really thought about how my mom would feel when she would read that note," she said.

"I am glad I didn't go though with it because I wouldn't have experienced the best days of my life,like having my little boy, graduating, and talking to middle schools."

Jimenez said being depressed and dealing with anxiety made itincredibly hard to do the little things. So shebuilt herself back up slowlyby setting small goals, like brushing her teeth andcombing her hair.

"The biggest goal was for me to graduate. And I did," Jimenez said.

"After that, I was like, I am going to say my story more openly andto change peoples lives somehow in the North. And I am."

Wanted to share her story

Jimenez approached CBC to share her story because shesaidpeople in similar situations need to know they're not alone.

She hopesmore public awareness of mental illness can stopnegative perceptions, which can stop people from getting help.

"The first step to seek help is so hard to do. And it is even harder to do when you are feeling judged," Jimenez said.

"Which is why I came out to talk about mental illness, even though there are multiple outlets to get help."

Last year the N.W.T. government offered the Talking About Mental Illness program in Fort Resolution, Inuvik, and four schools in Yellowknife. It'slooking to train more northern speakers to take part in the program.

Jimenezhopes she'll get totravel outside of Yellowknife to share her story with students in the territory'ssmaller communities.