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The joys and heartbreaks of raising biracial daughters in a world that doesn't always accept them

Island mothers share their experiences of the joys and heartbreaks of raising biracial daughters in a world that doesn't always accept them.

'I worry about what is it going to be like when they're older'

Deb O'Hanley's daughters Victoire, left, and Sixtine. (Submitted by Deb O'Hanley)

It was sometime in February when Deb O'Hanley watched her daughter approach her,enthusiasticand excited,pointing at the spot on her arm.

The scratch itself and how it came to be on her daughter Sixtine's armwould never be asperplexing as her daughter's observation once the wound began to heal causing the small patch of skin to appear lighter in colour.

"Mummy, mummy," Sixtine said."Look!I'm peach."

Peach, O'Hanley said,isthe word that has seemed to mysteriously emerge in both her biracial daughters' vocabulary from a young age, to describe the people they observed in the world with lighter skin than their own.

"I don't know where it comes from," O'Hanley said.

'I think they just want to be like other kids, they want to be the same as their friends in colour,' says Deb O'Hanley of her daughters. (Submitted by Deb O'Hanley)

'They ask a lot of questions about their colour'

It wasn't the observation that worried her, she said,but the excitement she witnessed her daughter express over the sudden lightening of her skin.

"It makes me want to cry, to be honest," O'Hanley said."I do noticethat their skin colour, they ask a lot of questions about theircolour because they don't understand why they were born white and why they're brown now, which is normal for mixed kids.

"I think they just want to be like other kids, they want to be the same as their friends in colour."

O'Hanley, who is originally from France,has counted herself among the Black community on P.E.I.for nearly 10 years. She met her husband, a white man from Summerside in 2009, while on a trip to Iceland.

There's this feeling of having to, for me anyway, of having to show and to prove my worth to other people and I don't want them to feel that they have to do that.Deb O'Hanley

She said in raising her two daughters, Sixtine who is eight and Victoire, 7, she's happy that they have her as a Black woman, with a typically darker complexionto see, identify and relate to while growing up on P.E.I.

"There's not a lot of Black representation on the Island," she said."I worry about what is it going to be like when they're older, because they're very cute and I'm sure they'll be cute later but there's a shift, I think.

"Maybe when they want to get their first job or something like that. There's this feeling of having to, for me anyway, of having to show and to prove my worth to other people and I don't want them to feel that they have to do that to be taken seriously."

O'Hanley said "the shift" happened once she entered her teen years.

It was a difficult moment for O'Hanley when her daughter Sixtine, left, got excited when she noticed a patch of skin become lighter once it healed from a minor scratch in February. (Submitted by Deb O'Hanley)

'It's because other people pointed it out'

"Because you're more of an adult-looking individual. So you're not just a cute little exotic brown child, you're more of a, you know, Black girl. So you don't bring that sweetness ... to the plate," she said.

"Just like when my dad told me that he realized he was Black when he moved to France. It's because other people pointed it out, that he felt that he was Black and it wasn't OK, and that's how I felt as well."

She felt that she shouldn't go to school with her hair braided that kind of stuff kills me.Brooke Laybolt

Islander Brooke Laybolt has two daughters, 13-year-old Adrianna and four-year-old Jazlyn. But they will never share the same experience with race.

Adrianna is biracial while her youngersisterJazlyn is white.

'It hurts me as a mom'

In the aftermath of George Floyd's murder and the protests which have followed since, Laybolt can't help butwonder how the individual life experiences of her daughters could and will differ.

Adrianna, left, and Jazlyn are Brooke Laybolt's beloved daughters. Their life experiences can sometimes vary because of their different skin colour. (Submitted by Brooke Laybolt)

"I have a 13-year-old mixed child, she's Canadian-Liberian," Layboltsaid."It breaks my heart that my oldest doesn't get to feel like she'll have the same opportunities in life because of her skin colour.

"I shouldn't have to teach both children different things like that. They're both equal, my oldest is just as beautiful and just as smart."

Seemingly small things, like having the girls'hair done, manageto emphasize issues of race.

"It hurts me as a mom. My other child, I can braid her hair and people will say, 'Oh my God, that's so cute,' but my oldest child fears going to school and being made fun of," she said.

"There was a woman who put11 hours into [Adrianna's] hair and it was beautiful and she came home crying and we had to remove it because she felt that she shouldn't go to school with her hair braided that kind of stuff kills me. She should be able to wear her hair however she likes."

Brooke Laybolt says she will never be able to get rid of the worry she feels over her daughters' futures. (Submitted by Brooke Laybolt)

The events of recent weeks have brought on mixed feelingsfor both mothers, who each brought their children to last Friday's historic demonstration, which saw thousands of Islanders participate in a call for justice.

"I cried so much and with my mask on," O'Hanley said."Everything that I had been feeling and I couldn't put into words, they had the words and I just felt like a feeling of community.

"It was heartbreaking but at the same time it made my heart warm."

'A baby's not born racist'

Even so, O'Hanleyworries whether people will remain motivated to keep up the momentum, so that the demonstrations and calls to action don't becomeisolated slivers in time, and her daughters might one day see a world rooted in equity and equality.

"I can feel I don't know if it's the pandemic and people are kind of like thinking about theirlife in general, like who they are as a person, what's important,what's essential I'm wondering if that's why it's bigger or maybe it's just years piling up," she said.

"I think education is the best way for changing the world, changing things that aren't working," she said."A baby's not born racist."

Both mothers expressed the cruel realityof having to explain to their children the violent context surrounding the demonstration and others like it happening across North America as well ashaving to answer their children's questionsand witness their confusion.

I'll just continue to raise them the way I've been raising them and tell them that they're both equally beautiful, they're both equally smart and they both deserve equal rights in life.Brooke Laybolt

"My four-year-old wanted to go up to them and just tell them to be happy and that everybodyis equal. It was heartwarming but painful," Laybolt said.

As a mother, Laybolt said she'll never be able to shake the worry she feels for both her daughters and their futures.

"It's 2020 and there's things that are happening that you just wouldn't think would happen," she said.

"I'll just continue to raise them the way I've been raising them and tell them that they're both equally beautiful, they're both equally smart and they both deserve equal rights in life. Now, yesterday, 10 years ago 20 years forward."

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