1,300 Canadians have died with medical assistance since legalization here's one man's story

On Friday Jan. 6, Rob Rollins and his husband John MacTavishwoke up just as they would any other morning. Johngot his brother Bobby MacTavish, who is unable to speak or walk, ready to go to his day program. But this time, before he left, Bobby spent about an hour with Rollinsin his bedroom. The two were saying goodbye.

One of the couple's closest friends, Claire Cowley,soon arrived and sat in the living room with Rollins and MacTavish. The three werechatting "like it was any other morning," MacTavishsays. "Which was weird, because I kept looking at the clock, knowing that, you know, the doctor was going to drive in that driveway."

Before the doctor arrived, Rollins, 56, wanted to make sure some practical things were in order.

"[He] tidied up his desk, made sure I knew where things were and gave me the passwords," MacTavish, 54,says."You know, made sure that I knew how to run the dishwasher."

John MacTavish describes medically assisted death of his husband

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John MacTavish describes the morning his husband, Rob Rollins, died in their home with medical assistance after battling throat cancer

A nurse from their rural village of Delta, northeast of Kingston, Ont., who had cared for Rollinsas he battled throat and neck cancer, arrived at about 10 a.m.and inserted an IV tube into his arm. His family doctor also came, although he wasn't required to, and the group kept chatting.

MacTavish says when the local doctor who would do the final procedure arrived at the house "he talked to Rob to make sure that Rob knew what was happening and still agreeable."

The couple walked down the hallway of their small house and Rollins had a cigarette, while MacTavish held his hand. Then, they came back to the living room.

"He said goodbye to Claire, who's his best friend, to the doctors and the nurse," MacTavish remembers."We went into the bedroom, he got into bed. I covered him up with his quilt. I laid down beside him. The doctor came in and asked if there was anything we needed to say to each other."

Then, he administered the lethal doseof medication through Rollins's IV tube.

"I just told him I loved him, held him," MacTavish says through tears. "And it was over in about five minutes. Very peaceful."

More than 1,300 medically assisted deaths

Rollinsisamong the more than 1,300 people in Canada who have died with medical assistance since the option became law.For most of the country, that's been less than a year, as Bill C-14governing medical assistance in dying passedon June 17, 2016. Quebec legalized medical assistance in dying six months before that, on Dec. 10, 2015.

I have decided to do pain management and let nature take its course with a bit of help.- Rob Rollins, in a letter to family and friends

Although CBC News has counted 1,324medically assisted deaths in Canada through data requested fromhealth ministries and coroners' offices in each province and territory, the actual number is likely higher, as someprovinces were unable to provide up-to-date information.

Across the country, cancer was the number one underlying condition cited for medically assisted deaths, followed by neurological disorders, such as amyotrophiclateral sclerosis (ALS) andmultiple sclerosis.

Because it was the first province to legalizemedically assisted death, Quebec has numbers for a full year.

The night before he died, Rollins typed a letter for MacTavish to read to friends and family at his memorial, thanking them for their support during his illness and explaining his decision.

"I have decided to do pain management and let nature take its course with a bit of help," Rollins wrote.

"We are fortunate enough to live in a province that allows medical assistance in dying. I've always been an advocate of this and now I have the privilege to attain it with deepest conversations and the support of my wonderful husband."

'We need to talk'

Rollins only made the decision to die after fighting for more than a year to live.

The discovery of abump on Rollins'sthroat in July 2015 led to chemotherapy and many rounds of radiation, MacTavish says. At first, his health-care team thought things had gone well, but they later noticed the cancer had continued to grow. A year after diagnosis, they asked if Rollins would undergo a throat dissection to remove as many tumours as possible, and heagreed.

"He wanted to live, so he would do anything," MacTavish says.

But the surgery left Rollins unable to eat. He relied on a feeding tube in his abdomen, and found it hard to talk and to swallow. In October 2016, the doctors told him there was nothing more they could do, and gave him about six months to live.

Rollinsdecided he wanted to set the wheels in motion so he would have the option to end his life. In November 2016, they contacted the local palliative care agency, whichconnected them with a doctor in the area. The doctor came to their home and went through the assisted death processstep-by-step. The paperwork took a couple of weeks, MacTavishsays, and it was clear that if and when the assisted death happened would be entirely up to Rollins.

Christmas was normally a big event in their home, and the couple usually took great joy in their tradition of hosting about 35 people. But last Christmas, they celebrated quietly, with Rollins enduringtrip after trip to the hospital by ambulance as his pain worsened through the holidays.

"The next step in palliative care would have been sedation," MacTavish says. That means Rollins would have been kept either completely or mostly unconscious until death.

"And he just said, 'No. That's not for me. That's not what I want.'"

MacTavish was heartbroken, but not surprised, when he came home on Tuesday, Jan. 3, and checked on his husband in bed.

"He just rolled over and he said, 'We need to talk,'" MacTavish says. "He said, 'Can you make the call?'"

Division over assisted death

Legalizing medically assisted dying has sparkeddeeply passionate debate in Canada. Some of the fiercest opponents include the Canadian Conference of Catholic Bishops, which called the approval of C-14 "the utter failure of government, and indeed all society, to care truly, authentically and humanely for the suffering and vulnerable in our midst," as well as the Council of Canadians with Disabilities, and advocatesconcerned about elder abuse.

Normalizing medically assisted death, these advocates say, sends a message that the life of a person who is ill, disabled or elderly is not worth living. The government should instead be investing in improving thequality of their life, they argue, by investing in better supports for people with disabilities, as well as better palliative care.

These are public policy decisions that end up sacrificing the lives of old, ill and disabled people.- Amy Hasbrouck, Not Dead Yet Canada

They also worry that people will feel they are a burden on their families and friends, and choose to end their lives because they feel obliged to.

"This is very personal for me," says AmyHasbrouck, who is legally blind and speaks for Not Dead Yet Canada. "These are public policy decisions that end up sacrificing the lives of old, ill and disabled people."

Jonathan Reggler, a family doctor in Comox, B.C., who performs medically assisted deaths and is chair of Dying with Dignity's Physician Advisory Council, says he understands those concerns. But he saysrigorous safeguards are in place to protect the vulnerable including a requirement that two separate doctors or nurse practitioners must be involved in approving the death.

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"We are actually very, very careful to make sure that when we talk to the patients that we speak with them in such a way that we can work out and ask them directly whether or not there is any pressure on them," Reggler says. "Most providers would have that part of the discussion with the patient alone, and not with family members present."

Reggler and others in favour of medically assisted dying believe the Canadian legislation is too restrictive due to a requirement that death be "reasonably foreseeable." Data gathered by CBC suggests in some provinces, many requests have been denied. Reggler estimates that about 30 per cent of the patients he personally assesses are ineligible, mainly because "the patient's natural death is not reasonably foreseeable or they have lost capacity by the time I see them."

As a full-time caregiver for his brother, who has a brain disorder and cerebral palsy, JohnMacTavishadamantly rejects the notion that the availability of medically assisted dying devalues the lives of people with disabilities.

"I fight every day to make sure that he gets everything that he should have in this life," he says. "My brother has a great life. He's on the go Monday to Thursday. He's spoiled rotten. He has everything he wants."

Three months after Rob Rollins died, MacTavish says he has no regrets about his rolein his husband's death.

"I miss him every day," he says.

But he takes comfort in the relief even happiness Rollins had in his last three days, "because he had control" over how he would die.

"The way he wanted. In our home. And together."