As Russia tries to grow its army, a mobilized soldier recounts horror of Makiivka attack

On New Year's Day, when at least four HIMARSrockets slammed into a school building in Eastern Ukrainehousing hundreds of newly drafted Russian soldiers, it was another group of newly mobilized young men stationed nearby who got the call to help with the grim task of digging through the rubble and remains.

One Russian soldier told CBCNews that he and others in his group were ordered to search for the severely injured and the dead, but sometimesfound only body parts.

"There are way more than 100 people (dead)," he said in a message to CBCNews.

"I can't even describe to you what Isaw."

The soldier, whoCBCNews agreed not to name for his personal safety,first spoke toonline Russian news site Verstka about what he believes is Russia's attempt to cover up how many died in the attack in Makiivka, Ukraine.

Russian officials say 89 were killed, including the regiment's deputy commander.Ukraine has said it believes the true toll is likely 400.

"There is not just war here," the young man said. "But an information war. "

Newly mobilized

The deadly attack comes as Russia is nearly a year into its war on Ukraine and has announced plans to beef up its military by adding hundreds of thousands of troops.

While a timeline for that move is unclear, Russian officials have signalled that the countrywill soon raise the upper age limit for conscription. They insist that Russia isn't about to embark on another unpopular round of mobilization, even as Ukrainian officials speculate that an announcement could come any day.

The soldier, stationed near Makiivka, messagedCBCNews over the course of a week andexpressed confusion, stress and mistrust of his commanders, who he accused of frequently being drunk.

He said they would frequently askthe soldiers for money, saying it was needed for important equipment.

The soldier said he has only been in Ukraine for six weeks, and was drafted outside his home in the Russian republic of Bashkortostan, which lies more than 1,200 kilometres east of Moscow.In order to help verify his story, he shared a copy of his identity documents and draft papers.

He says he regrets not immediately heading for the border like the hundreds of thousands of other Russian men who flocked to Georgia, Finlandand Kazakhstan in an effort to escape the draft.

The soldier doesn't have an international passport and has a wife and young daughter at home.

At the beginning of the conversation, the soldier sounded defiant and spoke about how he would rather be sent to jail than to the front.But days later, his tone was more resigned, and he spoke about the potential consequences of deserting.

"There are many of us who do not want to fight, including me, but we do not know what to do, he wrote.

"There's no way out."

Cell phone signals

On Jan.4, when Russian Lt.-Gen. Sergei Sevryukov announced that 89 soldiers had been killed in the rocket strike, he blamed the soldiers themselves for inadvertently giving away their location by using their cell phones, which Sevryukov said was banned.

The soldier described that accusation as "bullshit," saying his peers and commanders frequently used their phones with local SIMsto call home. While they were told not to use them, he understood that was because they didn't want them taking any photos or posting videos complaining about the conditions.

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Russia blames 'massive,' illicit cellphone usage by its troops for Ukraine strike that killed 89

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Russia's Defence Ministry said on Wednesday that 89 service members were killed in the Ukrainian attack on Makiivka in the Russian-controlled part of the Donetsk region. Moscow said the main cause of the attack was unauthorized use of mobile phones by its troops.

In recent months, videos have been posted to social media platforms of newly drafted soldiers showing off their inadequate equipment and lack of training.

After weeks of controversy around the country's "partial mobilization" campaign, Russia's Defence Minister Sergei Shoigu announced on Oct. 28,that 300,000 had been called up and mobilization was over.

But there was never an official decree, and some say there are reports of men continuing to receive draft papers ordering them to report to an enlistment office.

"Mobilization is still underway," said Boris Bondarev, a former diplomat who quit his post at Russia's UN mission in Geneva last May in protest over what he called Russia's "aggressive war."

In an online statement posted after his resignation, Bondarev called the war "not only a crime against the Ukrainian people," but also "the most serious crime against the people of Russia."

He dismissed speculation by Ukrainian officials who have stated that they believe the Russian government will start calling men up en masse starting in mid-January.He says he doesn't think the government needs to announce a new round of mobilization because the defence ministry can just continue drafting people on a "daily basis," particularly from Russia's remote, poorer regions.

"Russia has one great advantage over Ukraine and over the West," Bondarev told CBC during a zoom interview from Geneva.

"Russian officials don't count the losses ...they don't think about casualties."

The last time Russia's defence minister publicly acknowledged the number of soldiers killed in Ukraine was early last fall, when he said nearly 6,000 had died.

Ukraine and Western officials believe that is a dramatic under-estimate.

Bondarev saysthe Kremlin believes it can weather any loss of life because it has framed the war as an "existential" fight.He says his 75-year-old father, who has disowned him because of his anti-war stance, strongly supports what Russia still calls its "special military operation."

His father went down to the draft office in the fallbecause he wanted to sign up to fight in Ukraine, Bondarev said, but he was turned away because of his age.

Raising conscription age

This week, the chairman of Russia's parliamentary defence committee said that the country could raise the upper age limit for conscription from 27 to 30 ahead of this year's spring draft.He said there is also a plan to raise the lower age limit from 18 to 21, but that change might not happen for another three years.

Ekaterina Schulmann, a Russian political scientist who is currently a fellow with the Berlin-based Robert Bosch Academy, saysshe believes there will be increasing pressure on conscripts to sign military contracts and make up the force that will be sent into Ukraine.

She says this "hidden kind of mobilization" will be the most likely way for the military to compensate for the ongoing losses and keep sending men to the front.

Schulmannsays she believes the Russian government will do everything it can to avoid what happened in the fall when hundreds of thousands of men fled Russia to escape the draft, and there were what she describes as "rocketing levels of anxiety" throughout the country.

Back in Eastern Ukraine, the soldier who spoke with CBCNews said he and his group were waiting for orders to be sent to the front.

Whenever he hears bombing,he says he tries to run and hide.He wants to raise his daughter and live a normal life, he said, instead of "rotting away" for an unclear reason.

"Right now I feel like a live corpse," he said. "I have no feelings. "