Emotions raw in Uvalde, Texas, as residents grieve victims of school shooting

Lee Luna heard what he thought was the rat-a-tat-tat of loudhammering a few blocks away from the gas station where he works.

Jennifer Gaitan saw police cruisers speedpast her house toward her daughter's school.

Francisco Ayala wasen route home from his truck driving job when hecaught sight of a worrying newscast in a San Antonio hotel and set out immediately for home.

By the end of the day Tuesday, few in Uvalde, Texas,were left untouched by the mass shooting that claimed the lives of 19 children and two teachers at a local elementary school.

This town of 16,000sits about 100 kilometres from the Mexican border in south Texas. It's a predominantly Latino community of modest bungalows and a handful of businesses surrounded by sprawling ranch land andmesquite trees as far as the eye can see.

"Uvalde is a small town. Everyone knows everybody," said Tim Wiginton, 37, a border patrol agent who's lived there for seven years.

"Sowhether you were directly impacted [by the school shooting] or you know someone who was there, whose kids were there, first responders who responded everyone knows someone that was connected with it," he said.

Some of Wiginton's colleagues, members of anelite border patrol tactical unit known as BORTAC,responded to the shooting at Robb Elementaryand were the ones whoeventuallykilledthe gunman.

The border agents have a station in Uvaldethat oversees 7,800 square kilometres of southTexas and has about 140 officers. Thecity police, by comparison, have 39and the school district's police department only four.

"Honestly, we're probably the most prepared agency," Wiginton said, explainingwhy border patrolresponded to a school shooting."We train morethan the majority of agencies. ...We're just moments away. We have more manpower."

Wigintonsaida lot of border agentshad children or other relatives attending or working at the school.

"Some of them lost family members over there."

'She witnessed and heard so much'

Jennifer Gaitan, 30, came face to face with some of the officers when she rushed to Robb Elementary onTuesday morning to check on her nine-year-old daughter, Jazlynn, and tried to push past the cordon of police meant to keep anxious parents at bay.

"I had a cop that was pushing me back, and hewas ready to arrest me," Gaitan said Wednesday."And I'm yelling at him like, 'Don't worry about us ... go get the kids.' But they took over an hour."

Gaitansaid she lives a few blocks from the school and was one of the first parents on the scene around 11:30 a.m. local time, but that it was close to 1 p.m.before her daughter was freed from inside the school.

"It was horrifying for me, and I was outside. I could just imagine for her," Gaitan said.

She said it was the actions of her daughter's Grade 4 teacher that gaveJazlynn a fighting chance.

"When [the gunman] went in the back door, her room was the first door. He opened that door, but with [the teacher's] quick thinking, she told them to turn off the lights and to get down, and he thought nobody was in there. That teacher saved my daughter's life."

Still, she's worried about the impact on Jazlynn's mental health.

"She witnessed and heard so much,"Gaitan said through tears."She's traumatized."

That's why Gaitan brought Jazlynn to a prayer vigil Wednesday evening at the sprawling fairgrounds on the outskirts of town, where hundreds of residents from Uvalde and as far away as San Antonio as well as state and local politicians and religious leaders gathered to console each other.

"Right before we came over here, I asked [Jazlynn], 'You know, are you OK? Please, just talk to me,' and my daughter's never grabbed me so hard. And she let it out," Gaitan said."She just said she couldn't stop picturing it in her head, everything she heard, everything she saw.It's horrifying."

Vigil brings relief for some

Francisco Ayala was at Wednesday's vigil with his daughterHermioneand shared a similarly agonizing experience of waiting for news of his children. Ayala lives in Batesville, butfour of his children attend either middle or high school in Uvalde.

A truck driver who travels all across North America, hewas in San Antonio andon his way home for his son's high school graduation when he heard news of a school shooting and feared his children might be in danger.

"Nobody was answering the phone because they were all rushing over here [to Uvalde], and I had no clue what was going on," he said.

He later found them safe at the local civic centrebut learned that a member of his wife's family was among the children killed.

He said that Wednesday night's vigil brought some relief, but that for now, he's giving those who are suffering their space.

"We're just letting everybody grieve by themselves, the way they want to, with their immediate family, [and] I'm just staying with my grieving family at this time," he said.

The trauma of the shooting extends beyond those in the classrooms who experienced it first hand. Parents, too, are haunted by what they witnessed.

"It's just very hard to see, and it's gonna stay in my head forever," said Justin Rodriguez, 23, who works at a recycling facility. "I couldn't sleep last night. I tried to sleep for five minutes.I woke up every minute. Just people shouting and shouting, screaming in pain."

On Tuesday, he saw his 11-year-old nephew, who was in one of the two classrooms the gunman targeted and had been grazed by a bullet, come out of the school, but Rodriguez couldn't get to him.

"He saw multiple of his classmates get shot at," said Rodriguez."He tried saving this young little girl. He could not save her.He wanted to,he really wanted to."

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Not ready to analyze,speculate

Some of those who spoke with CBC said their childrenor siblings had attended a local high school with the shooter and his sister, but emotions in the town were still too raw for most to speculate about what might have motivated him. Some didn't want to talk about the event at all.

"It's just sad, you know what I mean?" said one young man coming out of a convenience store when approached for an interview. "I was at Robb when the kids were running out. I was there, but I just don't want to think about it."

On Wednesday, Texas Gov.Greg Abbott shifted the blame for the shooting on chronic mental health issues, saying the local sheriff and others had told him they "have a problem with mental health illness in this community."

Some Uvalde residents took issue with that characterization.

"He doesn't know. He's never around any of these little towns. He's always in, like, the bigger cities," said Lee Luna, 26, whose best friend lost his 10-year-old cousin, Xavier Javier Lopez, in the shooting.

Xavier's mother was so distraught after learning he'd been killed that she suffered a heart attack and had to be taken to hospital, Luna said.

"My best friend,his family is like my family, and that's his little cousin.[He] cried yesterday.It wasmessed up."

Luna said his younger brother and sister attended high school with the gunman,but that he couldn't offer much insightinto his psyche.

"Some people are just wired different," Luna said. "Some people just go through so much, they just retaliate in different ways."

Luna, who grew up in Uvalde and attended Robb Elementary himself, said the town has never seen this kind of gun violence.

"There's gangs around here and stuff, but not like that, where they shoot up innocent kids."

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