Over the last 10 years, Ive published a lot of very personal things on AfterEllen . Ive written things people didnt agree with. Ive written reviews of work created by peers that they didnt necessarily love. Ive written about being married and then not. Ive published interviews that were painful to get through and worse to relive during the transcribing and writing process. But nothing has been as difficult as what Ive had to write today.

After 14 years, AfterEllen as we know it will be effectively shutting down as of Friday.

Here are the facts: Evolve Media purchased AfterEllen from Viacom two years ago. They gave us two fiscal years to become their LGBT property and profit in that space, and they found we are not as profitable as moms and fashion. And, yes, they are mainly white heterosexual men, which is important to note because not only is this the story for us, but for a lot of other propertieslarge-scale media outlets, lesbian bars out-priced by neighborhoods they helped establish, housing in queer meccas like Portland that is being turned into condos and AirBNBs.

At the very same time, queer women and culture is being celebrated on the Emmys, in the legalization of both mothers being included on their newborns birth certificate, and our namesake, Ellen DeGeneres, being one of the most well-known, well-liked and undeniably profitable television and lifestyle personalities of our generation.