Jason Ritter said he was struggling with alcoholism when he met his wife, Melanie Lynskey , and thought he didnt deserve her.

The Parenthood actor (who secretly appeared on The Last of Us as an infected clicker) shared his story on Wednesdays episode of The Drew Barrymore Show , appearing alongside Last of Us and Yellowjackets star Lynskey.

I knew how incredible Melanie was early on, Ritter told Barrymore of meeting his now-wife a decade ago. Its not as cute of a story as you would like to think. It was messy and interesting and weird. But mixed in the mix, [I was] dealing with some alcoholism issues.

At a point, I knew how amazing she was, and I thought she would be incredible for someone who deserved her, basically, he continued. And I didnt feel like I was that person. I thought [I was] a little bit too crazy.

Ritter said that it was maybe a year after he stopped drinking alcohol that he started thinking he was ready for a relationship. He described that process as a slow burn and told Barrymore he was working on himself to become a reliable partner.

He did so much work on himself, said Lynskey. Im so proud of him.