Lena Dunham , who has vocally and expertly presented herself as a beacon of self-love over the years, revealed Tuesday that shes finally found her vanity: her skin .

In a new essay for her website Lenny titled My Perfect Fucking Skin, she reveals how being diagnosed with rosacea at age 31 opened up her eyes to the ways she had previously used her skin as a crutch in her own self-acceptance .

Seven years of being treated in the public eye like a punch line about female imperfection may not have felt like it was wearing me down, but it had actually forced me to rely emotionally on my one area of fully conventional beauty : my perfect fucking skin, she wrote.

Dunham said that for years when she received unsolicited negative commentary on her appearance, she consoled herself by focusing her attention on her nearly flawless complexion.