Torrey DeVitto is sharing that stepping away from The Vampire Diaries after her divorce from costar Paul Wesley was a really dark time.

On Mondays episode of Rachel Bilsons Broad Ideas podcast, DeVitto said that the divorce left her with zero desire to continue appearing on the show. Wesley, however, remained on the series until it ended in 2017 after eight seasons.

I was [on it], but I only did, like, six episodes. And then, once we were splitting up, I was like, Pfft, not going back there, DeVitto said. Im not that kind of person thats like, Well, this is business, I can stay. Its like, no. I dont want to come back. Im good, thank you.

The Chicago Med star played Dr. Meredith Fell in the fantasy series from 2012 to 2013. She was married to Wesley, who starred as Stefan Salvatore, from 2011 to 2013.

DeVitto admitted that she wasnt prepared for the intense attention their brief marriage would garner after it ended, calling the scrutiny mortifying.

It was hard, too, because for a couple years, anybody that I would date afterwards, people would just [say], Hes so disgusting. Hell never be [Wesley]. How could you do this? she shared.