Nicholas Rasberry trial hears from detective who first interviewed murder suspect

A videotaped conversationbetween NicholasRasberry and Det.Trish Allen wasplayed at his second-degree murder trial Friday morning in a packed Calgary courtroom.

During the two-and-a-half hour video, Rasberry tearfully tells Allen he didn't want the victim to die, but thathe feared for hissafety after being sexually threatened.

Craig Kelloway was stabbed to death at Rasberry's houseon May 4, 2013.

"It's going to ruin my life," said Rasberry of the killing.

The judge will decide later if the video exhibit will be admitted as evidence."It's a horrible situation, I just want to explain my side," saysRasberry on the video.

The two men and their partners met for the first time on May 4, 2013.They lived two doors apart in the southeast community of Auburn Bay.

The couples began drinking at a BBQtogether at Kelloway's home,and eventually moved over to Rasberry's house to continue drinking.

After the women went to bed, Rasberry tells Allen that Kelloway pinnedhim up against his kitchen counter and said he wanted to have sex.

Kelloway threatened to hit Rasberry and said he'd go after his wifenext, according to the accused.

2 knives broken in attack

Rasberry says he was able to get "separation"and grabbed a knife.Then he says he began to stab the victim in the back. He admits to the detective that he used three knives, breaking two and bending a third.

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He told the detective that hebelieved using several kniveswas"beyond ashadow of a doubt" an appropriate reaction.

"I remember the moment of stabbing him, I remember at this point,there's no turning back," said Rasberry.

In the video though, Allen tells Raspberryshe believes he'sskipping part of the story."I think you're leaving out what started it,"says Allen.

"I wish I knew," Rasberry responds.

"It doesn't make sense," Allen tells Rasberry. "You eviscerated him,his bowels were hanging out."

"He's got a lot to lose by wanting to do this random rape," Allen saysto Rasberry.

The courtroom was full for Friday's testimony,withstanding room only.

'I didn't want him to die'

In the prisoners dock, Rasberry satwith his face buried in hishands, at times wiping his face as he watchedthe video played.

There was no sexual vibe leading up to the point where he was corneredin the kitchen, according to Rasberry.

"I just think like a million places where I went wrong," said Rasberryto Allen."I didn't want him to die. I wanted to stop him."

Kelloway, a popular middle school math and science teacher, had moved to Calgary about six years ago from Cape Breton, N.S.He had a young son, who is about sixmonthsold, from a previous relationship.